The Conclusion Of A Decade

I am ready to fill this journal starting January with brand new life experiences!

Everyone always makes small talk with the concept of where did the month go or the season. It was January a second ago now it’s almost November. I think you know what I mean. But this time it’s not just a new year but a brand new decade. That I have felt compelled to think and reflect on the last ten years.

For how many lessons and events that have taken place, I can go on for days. So I have pieced together this post as an overview. Ten years ago I was an anxious, people pleaser following the rules and did not break out of my shell. Who never made basic decisions for herself because I would be nervous if someone did not agree. I was starting high school and trying to find the group I fit in with. Somehow I floated between all the groups and did not stay in any particular one. It was also the time that I starting concentrating on performing and writing which have become my passions today. You could say it was a step in the right direction for my self growth. Moving onto the middle part of the decade, I was having hard and some negative experiences that made me stronger as a person. Even if I did not see it that way then. The college years can be the best time to break out of your mold. Which happened during my junior year , that I felt it was my time to pursue what was right for me. Deciding not to care what others expected of me to do or be. I just lived to have the experiences presented to me. Once I graduated, I felt lost in life yet again. I had so many curve balls thrown at me, that I honestly believed I was drowning. Ultimately I was trying to find the courage to stand up for myself and live my life on my own terms.

Over the last year, I have been drawn to conclude the decade by working on myself. Finding toxic cycles and patterns to break. I let go of others’ beliefs on me. Ridding what does not severe me in life as well. I have began decluttering all my belongings to try and get back to the basics of life. This year has very much been a dark night of the soul. Working so much on myself, I feel better knowing that I am breaking free to have a full life during the next ten years and beyond. Focusing on what I want to pursue and finding happiness in it. These next ten years, I want to take full control of my destiny and jump at the opportunities before me. To have wild adventures traveling solo or with friends. Creating art, performing and writing on here as well as books. Meeting more people, who will help me grow and leave a positive impact on me.

As this decade is closing, I call it all the time of growing and changing. Yes we are never really done with either because something new always appears. We just have to accept and adapt. As much as I have enjoyed the experiences or life lessons of the last ten years, I am excited to enter a new decade of life. If there is anything I can say is leave the old in the past. Take the happy moments and grow upon them in the next ten years. I cannot wait to see what happens next in life and excited to share it all with you.