My Spiritual Side

I have for a long time, never fully talked about how I consider myself to be spiritual with others. As a child I was raised a in Christian household. For me I do enjoy and live with some of the teachings yet I always felt it was not for me fully. Deep down I thought there was more out there in the world. Little me loved astrology and horoscopes, even if others thought it was not real. Everywhere I would go, I would try to find the magic out in the world and thought I was able to create it. My brain was very imaginative as a toddler. I am a person who is open to many beliefs, ideals, and opinions. We all are different which is what makes us diverse. There are times I look into other cultures or religions and find beauty. It does not matter who you are or your beliefs, I will respect you. The only time I put my foot down, is when someone uses their views to hurt others. There have been people who have disapproved of my choices in having different beliefs and made fun of me. That is why it is hard for me to open up about it. Yet from doing research, by way of internet or books, over the years on many topics I have created my own form of spirituality that works for me. I am confident in it so I should not have to hide it. To start I should mention that I am a strong empath, which has affected me most of my life. Not knowing what energy or thoughts are mine or another’s was hard and left me feeling many things. I pick up on a lot of different people and places. This was one reason I had looked into finding different ways to center and ground myself. I have a little bit of a routine that I will do, that can vary each day. To me, I thought it would be better to explain how I use spiritual tools than just stating what they are. Everything I mention, I am sure you have most likely heard of or seen before.

First I try to meditate or do yoga to work on breath and to silence my brain from overthinking. Sometimes I will go even go outside and mediate by earthing, if the weather is good. If you need reference to earthing, I wrote on it a few posts back. Once I am feeling back in my own energy, I tend to either use tarot cards, oracle cards or my pendulum to seek answers. These answers I want to come from within me when I am trying to understand a situation or figure my next steps. I always use theses techniques with pure good intention and only work on self growth. After feeling aware of everything in and around me, I go to journal it down. This helps helps process everything and discuss what I discovered. Lastly, there are times where I do this all in silence or I will have music playing in the background. Depending on the day or time, I play either nature noises or ethnic music. That can range from Shamanic drumming to old world pagan groups. Musicians I tend to listen to are Heilung, Wardruna and Anilah. Over all this process has helped me focus on myself, finding what I can work on, and keeping me in a positive and happy state of being.

I feel more connected to myself, others, and the universe by having a wide range of beliefs, practices and feeling then projecting out love. There are days when I will go to seek mantras and read from new age books. As well as burn sage, palo santo, or frankincense. Then other days I decide to listen to modern religious music such as Flyleaf, Lacey Sturm and Kristian Standfill. I go with what feels natural in the moment. We all have the ability to find what works for ourselves and that is why I know spirituality fits me.

If you have any questions on what I have talked about, feel free to comment or contact me!