Old Soul in Modern Times

There are times where I enjoy living in the fun of modern times. Then sometimes I feel lost. Dropped into a different place than what I know. Where I somehow do not understand the events of the current world and the strange ways of why they appear. As well as should I jump on the train to get the new phone coming out, when my year-old phone is doing great? There are moments when a sense of knowledge comes from myself that originates from a different time such as peace and working together. Knowing what a Hot Toddy is or of old healing ways that naturally come to me. Sometimes older people are surprised I know about the bourbon “health elixir”. I have been this way since I was a child. Many people I have met call me an old soul for it. I can agree with that classification.

Old souls have been said to be holders or seekers of wisdom, loners, listeners and does not always strive for anything mainstream. Many of these traits, if you know me, I resemble most of them. There are days where I want to be alone to write or to rejuvenate. Because many times being social feels draining to me. When I am in social settings, I become mostly an observer and or a listener to everything going on. Sometimes it comes around when I do not feel as if I fit in with a group of people. During the times I find myself alone, I read and research on ways to better myself spiritually. Looking into ancient wisdom to find a mantra or saying that resonates with me. Finding the meanings and lessons on and from the past. I seek for the simpler things and meanings when it comes to life.

Yes, I do love to go out dancing and having wild adventures. Yet at the same time I feel 200 plus years old and want to be present in the stillness of life. Searching for a “home” that I have no clue where it is located. I have beaten myself up and cried on why I cannot be like other people. Those who want that luxurious car, laptop kind of phone or new eye shadow palette. But if I do not want or need it then it is okay. I just have different taste in things because everyone is different. If anyone out there feels the same way, know that you are not alone. Old souls are roaming around the world. There is a group of us navigating a modern world with an old soul brain.